My cold has let up a little. Yesterday was a hard day for me. Today I am feeling angry and focused on what I want to accomplish.
I have decided to finally go after my GED. I am going in Wed. to talk with a lady there about starting classes. I am more afraid I wont pass than anything. Im almost 28 now and its time to get myself a career soon. In a few years my kids will be in school full time. I need to start looking toward the future in some aspects.
I want to be an activity director. I love the elderly. I love to make them laugh. I have the experience I need.
I need to be financially stable and that I am not. Some of the money issues are adding a lot to my emotional problems. I love to be home with my kids. I have been very fortunate to be home with them in these early years. I am blessed. I cant imagine having to leave them both everyday all day 5 days a week. I am not ready to leave my babies like that or to pay someone to raise them for me.
I want to provide them a better future. I am tired of living pay check to pay check and still not making it.
Finding stuff to pawn or sell. Having overdraft fees,borrowing money so I can take my child to the doctor.
I do clean houses a few times a week and I love that. I also have a online store for my art creations and vintage items. Thats not enough. But I do enjoy doing it.
My husband and I also started a band together. That seems to be taking off.
I try to keep myself busy with things as much as possible.
