I am now off my meds. Its been 2 weeks tomorrow. I had horrible side effects. I got to wear I was in bed often. I wasn’t sure I was going to be able to take care of my kids for a while. I was so light headed,dizzy,nauseated and tired. I am so glad those side effects are gone. Now Ive noticed that things have changed. Things should have bothered me when I was on meds, now do.
I shouldnt have been ok with somethings going on in my life. Taking meds was my simple way of not dealing with things. Problem is now…. I have to deal with these issues. Im not just talking about the passing of my Father. Im talking about parenting issues,marriage problems….things that I have pushed aside for a while and ignored. I am so thankful I am not on more that one medication. I was on utube the other day and realized how much people take. WOW it was crazy no wonder they are having problems and side effects. They are taking what ever the doc prescribes.
My doctor wanted me to go to a counselor. I haven’t done that yet. I cant afford $30 a month right now. Especially if he wants to see me more than 1 time in a month.
Since I have been off the meds I have been dealing with mood swings and anger. I honestly feel like I could bash my head against wall. What does this mean? I just get so frustrated.
My husband doesn’t understand what I am dealing with. I dont know why I thought he would be more understanding.
I feel like I am the only one going through these feelings. I know a lot of this is from the imbalance of chemicals in my head….right? I havent been to church for 2 weeks now. There is some things I dont want to deal with right now either.
I need to work somethings out.
There are so many problems at hand right now. I know I could have it so much worse. I realize this. I cant believe I have been oblivious to these things. With the Lords help I will get through this.
